Understanding and Communication

When worst comes after worst; My mom had mental disorder- to be specific Nervous Breakdown. I did clearly remember years ago but I did remember how my life became miserable by the world. I was a child back then, an eldest with little brother. Honestly, we grew up with happy family: We went to Sunday service, we ate together with complete meals a day, we live simple way. 

She thinks to much, she was panicking all the time and telling us that something bad happen even it wasn't exist. She boost in laughed with herself, she didn't recognize us at least sometimes and many times she went too far sneaking in a manner that Papa didn't know. Naabot pa siya ug Davao na siya lang isa. And because of her condition my friends- childhood friends have bullied me nahihiya at nasasaktan ako may self-pity, my neighborhood gossip us behind. I did not understand them why they did so, I guess, that was normal to them? by our situation they can just pull out their tongues and release profanity instead of inclining us with courageous words.

She was diagnosed at Mental Hospital in Davao City.

But still, I kept on going in school. Answering my assignments even though mom couldn't help me. Crying was not easy. Pain reflected your being but thankfully, family still there. I know mom's suffering that time was never easy so are we. I love her more than anything in this world, without her I can never be this woman now. Because of understanding and love I know how to deal with people. It inspires me to listen, just like mom told us when we were kids kahit hindi naman totoo ang mga sinasabi niya nakikinig kami kasi iyon ang pinaniniwalaan niya. 

I had many realizations:

a. Understanding with each other is communication. Requires back and forth. Understanding sometimes doesn't always comes from other people. Family and yourself are enough to make life understandable. 

b. Defining your value and worth are not base on their words. 

c. Listening supports good communication. 'You talk and I listen, vice versa'

d. Do not be ashamed to boost your family even the midst of fall because they are your ground in times of falling.

e. Friends will make your life complete but in the end family, will always.